味道人生

喜、怒、哀、乐，这就是人生。
有些人的人生一帆风顺，有些人的人生风平浪静。
有些人的人生多姿多采，有些人的人生大风大浪，万般艰辛。
不管快乐或悲伤，美好或遭透的那一天，还是会落幕。
很多时候我看人、看事，看的很透。好或不好，我不肯定。
曾经有人告诉我，我是一位理性的女人。
想想，偶尔学习感性也不错， 呵呵。。。
我觉得人生是美丽的，不管是不是朝着你所要的方向或目标前进。
当中的体会与过程是让自己成长，是经验。
如何在自己的人生中点缀光彩与拥有平衡点，我还努力着。

Ice Pack & Wrist Wrap

These days, ‘Ice Pack’ and ‘Wrist Wrap’ are my best friends.
I use ice pack to wrap my injured left wrist at least three times per day.
I wear ‘Wrist Wrap’ most of the time except when I bath and sleep.
I need to see the physio and chiropractic specialist twice per week.
HSC Specialist Centre became my second home.

Out of sheer curiosity, you may wonder how I got injured. It is a mystery about my wrist injury. I can’t figure out what the cause was. I did carry heavy documents, I did open the jar lid probably overuse the strength, I did a lot of typing at work.

My doctor, a young and beautiful married Chinese lady, could be at my age, consistently would ask two questions whenever I go for physiotherapy treatment twice in a week.
Q1: Do you ice pack your wrist every two hour?
Q2: Do you wear the wrist wrap every day?

There was a sizeable pause while I made up my mind about what to say. As a matter of fact I told her yes but not every two hour, three times instead. Feeling awful about the wrist wrap, it had actually reduced the mobility of my wrist. Jokingly, it makes me looks like I am a super sports women or someone who is on marathon practice. The actual fact is the other way round. But gladly, the ice pack - cold and soothing therapy had put down my wrist's swelling and inflammation.

Every after the physiotherapist treatment, doctor will rub my hand with some kind of gel which smells like peppermint. I like the smells. She was rubbing on the trigger points of my hand and wrist, neither hard nor gentle action, just moderate. Nonetheless, my face was somber; the pain was unbearable, I was close to tears at my first two visits. My relief was written in neon on my forehead when the whole chiropractic treatment finished. Doctor was smiling at me, said good and tried to cheer me up. Doctor further mentioned that my hand is flexible; the potential of injury is quite high. By hearing this I begin to frame some worries.

I am now taking more calciums and drinking milk daily. Hope this helps.

Sense of Responsibility

I am not sure about you but certainly it irritates me when I see the shoppers simply left the trolley aside after they unload things into their car bonnet. This happen frequently at the car park of Jaya Jusco Shopping Centre situated not far from my house. Am I being peculiar or I would never understand the philosophy and the nature of human beings, as always like to take things for granted. Don’t you think so? Even I tend to do that randomly without thinking ahead. Thought someone will clean up the rubbish or sort out the mess for you. Sometimes I feel pity for the workers having had to go around and collect trolleys despite a designated area for trolley is being provided, which is along the parking lot. My sis was being cheeky and told me that it is their job, otherwise they are jobless!

In today’s environmental concerns over the globe, the nature disasters that had happened, it is no surprise that there are many effects of human’s development devoted to this profile. As far as I am concern, I am not on top of everything towards the nature conservacy jobs but at least learn to anticipate and be a responsible citizen.

清明节倍思亲

今年的清明节又过了。去年因Australia之旅无法出席，今年与家人按照拟定的日期回家乡扫墓。当天的行程很顺利。天气爽朗，家乡的情景依旧，只是人事皆非。

十年了，父亲的离逝已整整十年了。尽管时光的流逝，也不足以带走我心中的痛和遗憾。望着墓碑上父亲的照片，我还是流泪了。十年前所发生的一切，当时的我泪流满腮，痛心疾首。生老病死，谁也逃不过。但对于置亲的离去，我始终难以面对。

回想第一次到外地升学时有父亲的陪伴，直到一切安排好， 他才安心离开。这一切可说是历历在目，令我终生难忘。

老爸，您也安息了，我们都过得很好。

Goodbye 2009 ~~ Welcome 2010

Happy New Year 2010!!!

Another year over, a new one just begun.

The first day of 2010 is nearly ends whilst I am writing this piece, the sun is getting down soon. It was rainy days for the past but the sun is coming back, it is sunny all day today.

When I look back 2009, good stuff make me smile, sad stuff remind me about the lessons I have learnt but without any pain. As always my philosophy is don't look back unless you can smile. When I look ahead, dream gives me hope while uncertainty make me restless...... but I guess everyone needs to deal with this....that's life.

I hope all my families and friends have a properous year ahead, good health and happiness. Stay peace over the globe, free of war and no fight.

World Animal Day

4th October is World Animal Day. I didn't know till I read the newspaper and further note from L told me that he is buying treats for his pet. I said oh okay, try to sound matter-of-fact. My memory about my dog who died of poison came back. It was kind of an awful and sad thing to think about. I hope all the species over the globe are blessed and out of danger.

My Creepy Feeling

I am having minor headache since Thursday, it is unusual as I am proud to say that I never or hardly have headache. Thought to cure it, I drink more water, I slept early last night, I rested, I tried not to let my thoughts darting like unsettled fish. Still, still.....I am headache. I can now imagine how hard it is for those who has migraine. OMG...

Drifting And Wandering

It is a bit chill and rainy today. Despite the moody weather, I had a good lunch and nice chat up with L . I feel Sundays are for friendship, good food and great wine.

I have not seen L since ages, thats proven I have been really busy with working life since November 2008. Since then, I have not planned my post-graduate studies, I have not think about the online business that P talked about, I have not keep up my regular work-out. All I did was rest and relax after the hectic day at work and go for holiday whenever I can.

I feel I am like a goldfish in a goldfish bowl, just swim around and around and never gets anywhere. I am busy as I might seem to be, drift and wander through life without plan or purpose. I feel I must do something, to accomplish something. I think the greater thing in this world is not so much where we are, but in what direction we are moving.......

***Happy National Day***

Before the clock reaches 12midnight..........

Everyone.......

~HAPPY NATIONAL DAY~
Malaysia-52 years-Independence Day

Cheerio~~~

This week had been a tough week for me. I have not made any headway with things I want to do. Followed by two-days on medical. Repetitive strain injury is very debilitating. I was feeling uncertain with my condition, further treatments to be done. Doctor's confident advices have reassured and convinced me. Well......well.......I need cheeseee......tomorrow is another day!

Tears and Tributes

'Genius' of pop - Michael Jackson's sudden death was overwhelmed by sorrow and shock. Definetly shattered by his fans, celebrities and stars around the globe. I preferred to put aside Jackson's personal life and look at him as a brilliant entertainer, singer, dancer and composer, and he will always be the King of Pop.

Quirky Thoughts

The weather is warm and lazy. I would expect it is hammering down rain today, but it's not. I start to imagine how great the feeling would be to see the snow falling down onto my face.

I have been trying to read one chapter of the stories from the book I am reading everyday no matter how long it takes, but oh, my mind is too tired to carry on. I fall into sleep and continue reading in my dream.

Years passed. My life hung in limbo in 2008 as I waited to be released from the pain of my injured tendon, waited to see what the recovery would be. But nothing was resolved till recently, seems some improvement. Glad indeed. I thought my shoulder would get frozen till I can't hold a glass of water which was in my dream, just this one time, happens to be nobody's but my own.

手臂肌肉疼痛感言

前科的手臂肌肉疼痛似乎没有好转。近来有些时候真的痛得支持不住了，开始情绪低落。与同事们吃午餐时都不说话，同事们还以为我失恋。

看西医，只是给止痛药、抗生素。后来阿Tim介绍去看中医，说不错，说他太太的脊椎骨也被调正好了。不管了，终于去了甲洞给这位中医师看。

医师说我的手臂韧带受伤了。有淤血累积，需放血。哇！糟糕！听了好害怕哦。但还是勇敢的让医师弄出来浓浓的血，贴了药布，冷冰冰的。接着做了推拿，感觉松了许多。最后医师开了药还叮咛不可喝冰冷的水、不可吃酸辣和煎炸的食物。还有最懊恼的是暂时不能打球，少用电脑。其实还有很多东西要写，很多照片要放上部落的，可是须要休息了。下次陆续有来。

身体和心灵疼痛，真是磨人。想着。。想着，有点悲哀，想哭。

30分钟假老师

今天学校的马先生告诉我拉美小姐的课没人带。于是我赶紧通知林副。踏进教室，林副正弄着电脑，而学生们正做着练习。本以为告诉了她就解脱了，当我转身要走却被叫住了。"Aileen, can you be here for a while, just give me a minute go back to my office. I need to contact another supply teacher to come in" 听了，OMG 顿时有点莫名奇妙的紧张。哇！要看管学生，我可以吗？？

一眼望去，这班中一的学生人数大概是二十位。个个看来一副天真无邪的样子，好可爱哦！好笑的是某位英籍学生称为司提芬走前来向我握手，还动一动我带着的ID卡，看看我的名字。接着他们开始请教我些地理习题。幸好我还记得这个单元－Bearing。哎哟！真的是捏了一把冷汗。现代的学生好像把老师当成朋友，完全无拘无束的。什么excellent、you are star、you are great统统都说出来。而我小时候的学生生涯是害怕、害羞、不善于表达和保守派的。

说是一分钟，到后来却待了整三十分钟。哈！再多待会。。我怕学生们会喜欢上我这位假老师嘿嘿。。。

空白的人生

有时候觉得自己很懒惰。

前阵子每天都做瑜伽，最近稍为停歇了下来。

同事们邀我下班后打网球，我说不曾打、不会打。同事们鼓励的说一起学嘛。再来数次邀我下班后一起去吃晚餐，轻松一下。我又推辞他们了，理由是累了，想回家休息了（是真的啦！）。我还年轻哩，不知为何就是那么的力不从心啊？ 真是的。

老友Linda去欧洲我也没祝她旅途愉快，也没问她几时回来。直到她回来了，找我和茶聊天，我才想起她。

中学同学兼老友丝莹不时都会打电话到公司找我，慰问彼此的近况。为人母亲和职业女性的她不知何时变得那么的感性，说很珍惜我们的友情一直到老。我呢反而很少联络她，记得只有一次。呵，真惭愧。

人际关系要不断联络，才会有不断的约会。如果经常推掉的话，可想而知关系就会疏离。我总是很喜欢睡觉、看长篇戏剧、偶尔发发呆。哇！好像给自己的人生留下了很多空白也。

老板再见！

八月二十日，是老板BL在学校服务的最后一天。我与他一起工作了五年。以我工作的历史，这次是最长久的哦。五年的时间说长不长，短不短。就这样，bye-bye咯。那一天，我的心情有惆怅、无奈、不舍。好奇怪，我与老板也不是很亲近，都会出现这些情绪。也许，这就是人与人之间的相处，经过岁月的洗涤所出现的感觉吧！

老板现在可爽哦，到处旅行然后就回他老家英国去。祝福老板！

加班评论

每一次看到阿荣弟弟工作迟回，我都会想他加班何时了啊！

还记得某一天，某位同事对我说：谁没有经历过超时加班，他就算不上是打工一族了。当时我不服气，抗议道，岂有此理！谁说的？！我个人认为，加班， 不过代表一是你的工作效率其慢无比， 所以需要延长工作时间。二是工作量增加，不能在短时间内完成。可是现实中，老板都会认为如果是打工一族，却又从来没有经历加班，那只不过说明你工作随便，随便交差，白领新水罢了。

现今社会竟争日增， 而老板又常以为你是＂万能＂的，所以工作量增加，多到你做不完才是＂正常＂的。假如你清闲、准时下班，老板都会想你很得空。真是过分的想法！

家有一老

今天休假是为了带妈妈到医院做身体检查。妈妈年纪越大越像小孩，有句话：家里有一个老人家，就如有一个小孩子一样。

与妈妈一起从停车场行走到医院时，突然间领悟到妈妈是真的老了。步伐缓慢，间中还急步的走，差点儿绊倒。她甚怕自己走得慢，唯恐阻碍了我的步伐和时间。看着她的背影，我有点哀伤。想着自己每天匆忙的生活，急促的步伐，从来没有留些空间给她老人家。

当我还是小孩子时，妈妈陪着我一起走，随着我的步伐一起走。而现在妈妈年老了，我也得放慢脚步，陪着妈妈一步一步的走。

Good Food....Good Compliment

Some of my colleagues have been talking about this "Staff Buffet" during these days. Finally today is the day for everyone to get together and enjoyed good food. "Ah...again food from "GROUP BASE" some noise was grumbling at the back of queue. Human will never satisfy with what they have or appreciate what they have been offered. There's terrible isn't it?? But somehow there are people may just keep quiet even they have much to say. Never tell never know. But guess these are the nature of human being!

Right after 3pm, everyone was heading to the grand hall to be seated before started attacking the food. Amazingly the grand hall used to be very dull but was filled with nice backdrop and shining trees on the stage. I kept looking at the wordings which my boss name appeared on the screen. Yeh, of course it is not just a eating party but to say goodbye to the big Bosses.

Party, eating, good food, music and surely there were speeches from the Bosses. While I was thoroughly enjoyed myself with the food, my name has been mentioned by my boss. A very good compliment from him eeeehhhh....really happy. All about how good, how supportive, conscientious I am. Compliments always make people happy ya....despite I am not that as good as he said (try to humble myself kekekkk...).

What a Happy dayyyy... with good compliment and good food!

一个人的午餐

今天在银行搞掂了帐目后，顺便往隔壁的印度餐厅＂Yatra＂一个人享用午餐。餐厅里一眼望去竟然是华人多，原来不只是我而已。:P

每天都是与同事们三五成群的一起吃午餐，除了有开会。今天我是一个人，少了些欢笑声。

曾经我很不习惯一个人，害怕孤单也很害怕寂寞。所以无时无刻都希望身边能够有人陪伴。不喜欢一个人的理由自己也不知道为什么。是因为缺乏安全感，还是学不会面对只有自己的空间？

如是以前的我会是浑身不自在，好像少了什么似的。现在的我却渐渐喜欢上一个人的时光。因为可以更真实地贴近自己的内心。有时候，一个人静静的阅读喜欢的书籍，听听喜欢的音乐，或什么也不做，也很享受哩。

也许，人越大越享受孤独的感觉，也更需要一个人冷静思考的空间。一个人的时候，我把自己看得更清楚、聆听自己的心跳、感受自己的心情。学会了诚实面对独一无二的自己，即使那样的自己并不完美。